It's worsen. It's worse than I thought. I'm completely alone. Simply I can't make any friends. Meeting new people scares me a lot. I met someone in a chat room and I liked him a lot. But I started to feel very uncomfortable I don't know why. And we were going to meet each other face to face but I couldn't do it. So I told him: 'I have a lot of problems in my life and I don't wanna share them with you, sorry'. I just wanna die to stop the pain inside. I spend most of the time alone in my room, but I can't help it. I just can't.